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I jsut can't do it anymore

I don't want to be in this skin anymore
I want it to be split open
have the soul emerge in a burst of light
A whole new me
full of wonder, colour and hope
pain and despair falling to the floor
discarded like yesterdays laundry

I am a little depressed today. I am not sure maybe it is because I haven't heard from Jason. Maybe to day just sucked. Work was absolute crap. I got called a bitch and I was sick all fing day until one o'clock...knew those shots were a mistake last night. stupid girl that I am. My Blossom is rather drunken. I love her she is so crazy...lol my crazy girl. I want to go to a concert maybe ac/dc unless aerosmith comes around here somewhere then I will go to that one instead... I don't know if I want… Continue

Jay and I are back together but he is staying in regina and I am living here I think it is best for us not to live together right now



another lonely night
in another lonely town
all these bitter memories
they always let me down
thinking of a love
dreaming of a kiss
thinking of your touch
it's the one I miss
tomorrow never comes
yesterday is grey
I am living in the present
but the past won't fade away

I was happy once
I am sure of it
days slip away from me
memories fade
but the longing remains



it sure is quiet here at my apartment. I haven't been truly alone in years. eight I think. I am not quite sure what to do with myself anymore. I have a blog on myspace that I write in quite often. It helps to ease some of my lonliness.


blue pieces of me
I see them everywhere
in the window
in the street
in the light floating down across the room
I want to grab them
put them together
make them whole… Continue